I'll take it!

The day after I wrote my last blog entry I received a phone call offering me a job. I almost started to cry as God, yet again, showed how much He would take care of me.

I spent the spring and summer applying and praying. But mostly waiting. When people asked me how the job search was going I would say "It's going". When, in reality, I wanted to say "I'm waiting on God. I've trusted this to Him and He hasn't failed me yet, so...why would He now?" The Bible shows God, time and time again, being faithful to His people.

We often quote Jeremiah 29:11: "For I now the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." But do you know what it says after that? I didn't for a long time and, it was when I continued reading, that I understood the magnitude of this verse.

"Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the Lord."

It is such a promise that, if we search for Him, we will find Him. If we pray, He will listen. So I have felt like I was doing trust falls all summer. I would worry and sometimes I would give it up to Him and other times I would try to take care of things myself. I was not letting "the peace of God" (Philippians 4:7) guard my heart. So He brought me through, teaching, loving and making the way way straight. Always putting in my mind the promise that "we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28).

Today was my first day on the job, working for an insurance company. Though this is not where I thought I would be (cue Proverbs 16:9) but there is where I need to be. I'll be able to live at home, volunteer in my community and pay off my loans. And I know that it is all part of the path God is leading me on.  I'm excited to see where God leads, cause I already gave it all to Him nine years ago when I became a Christian. But I'm nervous and kind of worried (still, why? I don't know) about this new adjustment. Change is hard and full of so many uncertainties and, let me tell you, I like my certainties. Here goes another trust fall...

"Unless the Lord builds the house, They labor in vain who build it' Unless the Lord guards the city, The watchman stays awake in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, To sit up late, To eat the bread of sorrows; For so He gives His beloved sleep." 

Psalms 127:1-2